You & Yourself

 Greetings!

This is just a simple expression from my heart and I just wrote it for fun. Hope everything is okay and good. 

Can I be better than before? Can I be myself back? Can I be more confident and more charismatic like always? I want to be the significant one. I want to be better. Here is the thing that I always wonder about am I good enough? Am I the best enough? I am doubting myself every minute and then. Questioning all things about my abilities, my decisions, and my life. Once, I have always made many accomplishments and was the best student in anything that I did, except for sports. I will always try my best, to achieve the best. I am sure that you people will think all about this too as it is a phase in life and you will realize it later. How do we fix this?  How do we improve ourselves? The answer will always be the same which is IT DEPENDS ON US! The main point that people will talk about. When it is about you, you depend on yourself. But, how do I do that? I wish I can permanently erase all the thoughts in my mind.

Thinking that you are not worthy and others cannot trust or depend on you is the worst feeling ever. It kills me inside when people think that I am not worthy anymore. There is always someone whispering to me that I cannot handle any work. Being in this condition is very stressful cause it makes me believe it. I believe that I cannot do any work and I cannot handle responsibilities. Doubting every single decision that I made either in the future or in the past. Says that I am not a good leader and I am wrong all the time. That’s my inner voice speaking. It has been very loud till now. When I want to start to believe in myself, it will haunt me and I cannot do anything unless I fight it.   

It is always you and yourself. Fighting with the inner self is the most dangerous one. This is because when you fight within yourself, you are also your only savior. A battle with yourself is the only thing to easily fell down. Just like me, when things get tough. I will likely want to give up and do nothing. Criticizing yourself is also a part of the battle with our minds. Being struggling to focus on something and always have something in mind. Imagine that. it is hard as we need to focus on what we are doing. The criticism in our mind will usually make us feel down really hard. Repeat over and over again, making us believe that we are not worthy and not dependable. Your mind talks about everything about yourself. Do not let your mind take control of your body. If you cannot control yourself, you will end up worst. This is the truth. Be strong and fight those thoughts as hard as you can. Believe in yourself and try to pick yourself up from everything going on. The truth also, you have no idea that people actually care about you and because of that do not always trust your mind playing all the scenarios in your head. You can do this. You are not alone. You matter the most and I love you. 

I love you dear self. You can do it and you can go through everything. It is meant to be.  


Thank you for reading. May you have a good day!

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