I wonder...
I wonder, what if I can never be myself again? I wonder, do seriously my college is the reasons I became like this. Do college is the first time that I became like this. I wonder. I want to know why and I want to know the reasons behind all of this. I want answers and I think no one can give it to me other than myself, I don’t know. After all, I just wat to know the truth about myself. I am just sure that, I became like this started when I first study in this college. At the same time, I was thinking, do she really also the reasons I became like this. I started know her in college also, and she basically ghosted me now, and I thought to myself, is she also the reasons I became worst. I don’t want to blame any as I do not think that this is all her fault. Started on just being anxious always, keep on feeling nauseous and rapid heart beating or palpitations. Now, it became much worst cause sometimes, I will have the mental breakdown all in a sudden. Just the sudden urge of feelin...