Walk through life

 Well, an update from me is that I would prefer to be alone rather than be part of someone that can ruin me. I am not saying that I am arrogant or what. It is just the way I want to protect myself from heartbreak again. You know, sometimes we befriend people but we cannot fit into society. We are trying to be ourselves but we can’t. we are trying to fit in, but we can’t. I am ain faiqah who will always try to be kind to anyone, but I also believe in self-consciousness and self-defense. I am really inspired by one of my friends as I know she felt the same too. I am comfortable with the staff here, as they are very fun. Well, things have changed and I think it would be better if I do it just for a professional matter. I think I am going to be professional because that is the best. You know, just let it be, just let it go. Well, for sure, I am so sorry for everything that I have done here, probably it will be too much. I think I might not give my best to hang with the people here and most likely shut myself out. However, I am not shutting myself out but more likely preserving myself from unwanted things. Let's just go with what people say about me. Let it be, even if it’s a bad thing, I think I know myself even more. I believe in myself. I believe that I can do anything that I want and I can really be successful at anything that I will do in the future. It is myself who will face everything. We cannot depend on people. It is true that we cannot live by ourselves as we may need help from people. but only a certain help is needed in this life and others are just yourself to hold on to. As we grow older, we realized that after all, we do not need validation and praise from anyone else except ourselves. Don’t get me wrong, I am not saying that we need to be so full of ourselves, but we just need to realize that we are the ones that can shape us into who we are. We are the ones who define ourselves and not others. Living in this world needs us to see that, in billions of people existed, you are one among them, and that means something more meaningful. Sometimes, we come across people who are cruel, mean, and bad to us, but that does not mean that you are one or you are weak by being the victim for them. Every time is a lesson and a lesson is for us to learn, evaluate and think about how to deal with and how to be better. My principle is always to be kind to everyone as everyone deserves kindness. I am going to use that forever maybe. Sometimes we get too disappointed with how people treat us because we always treat people with kindness, but not everyone is us. Here is the thing, do not be disappointed okay. Well, still, that means this type of person does not deserve your kindness and you should just treat them with a normal type of kindness. We deserve the best. No matter how bad it looks, everything will be fine in the end. Pray, believe, and have faith. We have to hold on, as life is still going on. Enjoy life while we can do it. We are the ones who should color our life. In recent times, I have watched some Instagram reels saying that, when we have come to the realization about ourselves, that means we are trying to do better in our self-spiritual journey. Do not feel down as there are people who are going to support you. The right people and the better people for you. I like to write what my thoughts are because writing is some sort of expression right. It is better to write compared to talk about it, right. Well, I know that life is not easy, but sometimes I always bear in mind to make sure I have good manners all the way. I hate to say this, but sometimes I hate myself so much too, because of some things happening to me. I really am concerned about myself as sometimes I get to overreact. Honestly said, I am very afraid of knowing people as I know people tend to leave. For some time, I have been thinking about myself and what is wrong with me. What is wrong with me, do I really have attachment issues in me, do I really have problems with people, can I manage problems in my life. I hate when I think about all of this because it will make me doubt myself every single time. Yeah, overthinking will take place and it will ruin me in a minute. Truth be told, in some way, it is not your fault something happens. Changes will occur along the way too. We always did our best to get to be kind to people and treat them nicely, but somehow, it is just the way it is. When we have done our best, but the vibe is still not good and people have their own lives too, so that is sure is not your fault. Whatever happens, we have to keep moving and we are the only ones who can control our life. We are the ones who choose our path and our surroundings. Responsibility is ours to carry.

May God ease us in everything that we will do. Be yourself, be kind, be professional and be positive.

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